Four years of this journey. Well, four years since I met my soul, but a lifetime of this journey. It was when my soul recognized itself that the journey went from a path, to a roller coaster. Now it feels like the roller coaster stopped, and I don't know what to make of it. I … Continue reading I feel different
What a mess, what a mess. The pain of not moving forward. The inability to surrender to it all, and just accept. It brings on a sort of panic inside me. Why can't I just be okay with it all? In a desperate move to try and free me from clinging on to hope, I … Continue reading Did I just become the ‘runner’?
Today seems like such a strange day. If it weren't for me feeling very grounded, I would call it surreal. I almost never feel my heart center anymore. What was once so strong that it would cause me to wonder if it was going to burst out of my chest, is now faint. A small … Continue reading Walking in both worlds. The modern shaman.
My, my, have I grown and learned! I was passive and codependent with men in the past out of fear they would reject me if I stood up for myself. Not anymore and it feels great! Each day I learn to balance my masculine and feminine energies a little more. I keep my circle of … Continue reading Masculine energy and facing your fears
I had a dream that a scorpion crawled under my covers, across my feet, up my body, to my chest. It stood facing me as it raised it's stinger and stabbed me in the heart. I felt the burn of it's poison flood my chest and branch out into every vein. A fear came over … Continue reading Scorpions Sting
on this journey. I feel pretty well balanced, energetically. I am grateful that he showed up in my life. I know he is with his fiance, and although I wish he were with me, and it takes so much strength to accept what is, thinking about him being happy with her, makes me happy. I … Continue reading I’ve come a long way…
I have had many dreams about the same place. Each time I am in this city, I am in a different place and discovering new things within the city. This place does not exist here, but it has a feel to it that reminds me of San Francisco in an odd way. I have dreamt … Continue reading I always dream of the same city